oops

WoW has become my life. the best night i've had all week was tonight, and it's because me and some people from my guild did two dungeon runs and got to level 30 and my guild was like yaaaaay and i was like yaaaay and it was awesome.

i'm sorry, mo. i tried to resist but i am powerless in the face of leveling up and upgradeable armor.

i resigned myself to the fact that i was a loser beyond saving when i realized i was revolving my night around a dungeon run. lol.

so SHHHHH internet! this is our little secret.

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so yeah. i'm not dead, i was just super busy studying for and then failing my finals. then i went on a trip to new orleans to rebuild a house. but before all that i got a WoW acct :D

ummmmm i'm working on some fashion stuff right now, my uncle told me if i want him to talk to anybody about getting any prospective internships in the works i have to have some kind of portfolio together. which doesn't really make a ton of sense to me (since internships are basically getting people coffee and wathing them work) but w/e. i'm just super glad i have the chance to possibly get in with some fashion peeps.

so i might have some pictures of the stuff i'm doing up here soon, right now i'm off to go see fireworks. i'll get better at this blogging thing, i promise lol.

pictures pictures pictures

wow, i haven't posted in a while.

a few quick things-
vacation next week, i'm super excited. DC is gonna be AWESOME :D
unfortunately i have a chem test and latin quiz tomorrow.....ew. but i have 2 studies so the day should go by fast :3

also-

check me out here if you like photography. and while you're at it i hear this chick's not so bad either.

look forward to DC pics when i get back :)

i wanna be next to you

the party was fantastic.

i kinda feel like a wasn't actually attending it.....i put so much work into helping kate over the past month that it feels like i was helping to run everything, rather than just sitting back and enjoying it. i had a great time though :)

i'm exhausted, off to have lunch and study for a latin test monday D;

<3

<3<3<3<3<3

i love him :)

he's my new baby but he needs a name!
something european....obviously.
any ideas?

i found a new way

i'm super excited for this weekend :)

i just spent about 4 hours helping a friend shop for her dress for a party we're going to friday night- and cause of sale at cache i got earrings for $3!!!



but i ended up buying 2 new bras and spending $80 at victoria's secret so that didn't really work out haha. i couldn't help it! i meant to try on the "perfect one" and get the $5 off coupon....but it fit so well i ended up buying it. oops.

oh well. i get to wear my awesome heels and a vintage necklace from my aunt....all my accessories are coming together perfectly, it's such a nice feeling :)

wow i'm a dweeb. can you believe i'm also going to anime boston this year? somehow excessive shopping for bras and accessories and AB don't really fit together in my head, lol.

oh and standardized tests weren't so bad today. but i'm not excited about the 2 regular tests i have friday, haha. studying is still homework, guys :B

argh

i need to buy a memory-card reader :B

also i had an obscene amount of cake today.

shabada

its super late right now but i still have a ton of work to do.

tomorrow i'm leaving on the youth group retreat for a few days....i'm irritated that i have to go but it'll be nice to get out of the house for a bit. i'll probably have some time to draw, which will be nice...honestly i've been too stressed to get anything drawn recently and it makes me sad.
what i really wanna do is paint- whenever i think about a blank canvas all these gorgeous pictures just pop up in my mind and i wanna paint them soooo badly. but if i don't have like 2 hours where i can just sit and paint i get all annoyed :B

oh, i also got some highlights yesterday. they look really classy and natural and they make my hair more multi-tonal, which is what i wanted. i might go a little blonder in a few months cause these are a bit too subtle for my taste, but i feel like now my hair matches me more :3

i'm not looking forward to tomorrow.....history presentation (AAAGH), 2 quizzes and a lab due. :B


just wondering, is it better to go to bed super late or get up really early??

:B

history project on symbolic speech due tomorrow.....LAAAME.

also impossible to do seeing as i need my computer to do the research.....but i've been distracting myself for the past 3 hours and, unsurprisingly, gotten absolutely no work done.

i pg essay + 5 min presentation + prop + nothing done yet = problem

i need some kind of medication that makes you care about boring shit that's totally irrelevant to everything in your life.

cause whatever i've been doing isn't working :I

weirdest thing you've ever seen. guaranteed.

this is to mentally prepare yourself-

1


a BLONDE PERM. that is NEVER ok. and a fur wrap? that's taking it over the edge.
i love how everybody's so intense and getting all into it.......
but the singer has a blonde perm and a mink stole. lmao.

ok, that probably wasn't enough to break your brain.

this is.

2

.....

i have nothing to say.

if you've ever seen something more disturbing- in your entire life- than man do i feel sorry for you.
if not, congrats! you're just been immunized against any future mental trauma :D

show her that you're not that shy

so petunia has pretty much stopped syncing anything. which is annoying cause now i have about 100 songs that aren't on her :I

but its cool cause i'm only $20 away from buying a new 80g zune!!!!!! i can afford it wednesday, i'll probably pick it up this weekend. at least i hope i will- i might have to go on this semi-mandatory youth group thing that i'm trying to get out of. i had made plans with a friend :B

oh well, worst case scenario i'll have to get it 2 weeks from now.
off to pack my bag to hang out with mo :3

procrastination

wasting time until i have to go get a cavity filled. i have to email this bitch teacher today cause i don't wanna have to deal with her tomorrow.....ugh school.

gotta go brush my teeth....this wasn't very interesting.

petunia's still dying :( i really hope she can last another 3 weeks until i can afford a new one.....fingers crossed!

forget what they say in soho

feeling much better today!

i definitely failed chem but oh well. the rest of my classes were fine, and for some reason i was in an awesome mood by the end of the day. went to dance and then a friend's house, where i helped her print out like 100 birthday invitations. they kept praising how good with computers i was and her mom gave me a scarf!



she made it herself :)
i feel so loved whenever i go over there. after the invitations were done we bummed around and watched most of pineapple express before her bf's dad drove the two of us home- SUCH a good movie. i'd forgotten just how hysterical it was, i'm so glad we watched it. sorry mo xD

so yeah, i might go see watchmen tomorrow, depends on whether or not we get coordinated. i'm so busy we might have to go next week :I

petunia's still dying, the plague is progressing. i'm gonna have enough cash to get a new zune in a few weeks, i hope she lasts that long D:

oh, on a side note, i got suuuuper excited for AB this year today! mo and i are gonna go shop for supplies in a few weeks, i reeeeeally hope i can get a cosplay together for this year.

i wish i had days as great as this more often. i wish i could put my finger on what made me so happy today and tuck it away somewhere so i could take it out whenever i got depressed.

ugh

today's been the shittiest week ever.
i've failed 2 tests and forgotten a homework assignment worth a quiz grade, and surprise progress reports came out today- thanks to the 2 quizzes i missed when i was out and my failed test i have a 49 in algebra.

and petunia's broken!!!!!!!



that horrible black splotch is a plague that's been slowly spreading across the screen ever since i dropped her wednesday. i almost have enough money to buy an 80 gig, which honestly i've been meaning to do for a while. after i get it i'm sending petunia in for maitenance though.....i can't bear the idea of her rotting away in a corner after her she's been COMPLETELY TAKEN OVER by this menace.

even making a carrot cake didn't help me feel better :(

i don't want to whine but i haven't been this depressed and stressed out in a long time. i have a chem test tomorrow and i can't handle another failing grade this week. someone send me something gay and cheer me up please.

sick, shoes

finally recovered from my stomach bug- it only lasted about a day but i haven't had a stomach thing in around 7 years and it was horrible. hopefully i won't have one for another 7 :B

something about being sick makes me want to shop reeeeeally bad-







































































:B why can't i be rich?
anyway, this weekend i was hoping to pick up some dvds- pineapple express, black lagoon s1 box set (a friend scratched up my old copy)....that probably won't happen though, what with me still exhausted.
oh well. looks like i'll have to be content with lazing around the house reading harper's bazaar :3

it was in your eyes, in your eyes

the chem retake went really well. i have that weird feeling where i think i did everything right but i don't know if its because i know what i'm doing or because i have no idea.
i just called in and skipped out on choir practice, so i have the whole night to myself for the first time in a long time.
and i don't have an obscene amount of hw :D
it feels so weird to be home at 6 with nothing really weighing over my head....i still have to sync all my music to petunia since she spontaneously reformatted herself yesterday, but that won't take too long. hopefully i can get all some of my work done before dinner so i have drawing time. that would be nice.
oh-
and my friend got me a scarf on the school exchange trip to france.

:3

damn it

does anybody have any rss feed expertise? i'm messing around with some stuff for the futurrreeeee and i don't really know what i'm doing haha

i have a surprise quiz tomorrow...the day after vacation....and a chem test retake and a latin quiz and a book due the next day. and like shitloads of other hw as usual haha.

all i wanna do is drawr :(

the world has been turning

the talent show went really well tonight :)
i got to design the program covers as well as open the show, so i feel pretty good about myself.

i finished the program cover literally 10 mins before it was due- i might have a procrastination problem? haha i'll fix it some other time.

a really good friend of mine sang "for good" from wicked as a duet with me for the second to last act, and that went really well too.....i forgot to sing a little of one of our unison verses but i came in right before the important part. i'm a little miffed about that, but oh well :B

ugh i have a whole chem packet to do as review for tomorrow- our teacher's an idiot and made literally everybody in our class fail the last test so we're doing a retake.
i should really be doing that instead of typing this lol.

oh- before i forget-


BAM.
i bought them like an hour after my last post :D

i don't know how i feel about today. i really liked having vacation, i don't know how i'm gonna handle going back to school and being strapped with all its pressures again.
ugh. i'll have to draw some more, i forgot how relaxing it was.

look forward to some more art in the rush complex blog later this week ;)

floating either up or down

wow, i haven't posted anything in a while.
some new things-

1: <3

an excellent mix of one of my favorite songs.

2: more <3

this is such an amazing album- all the artists have such emotion when they sing it's impossible not to get into it. the last track, doctor doctor, and the oracle are probably my favorites.

3:
















(a random stranger stopped me in the mall today and complimented my bag :D yay)


i'm having a friend over in a bit to practice a song for the fundraiser thing, but i wanted to say hey before that.
so hey! vacation's been a blast so far, i saw confessions of a shopoholic on valentines day which was fun. i've been to the mall twice so far this week (lol), and i'm going again tomorrow with mo. partially to hang out and have a good time, but partially to lust after these:


omgggggg i only need 30 more dollars and there goes the last of my christmas money. it'll totally be worth it! maybe i'll stop at the bank before going....hmmm.

have you ever found yourself torn over an expensive purchase? i've realized recently that if i don't save up for something big, my money just tends to disappear. i don't know how it happens (i have a sneaking suspicion it's impulsive smoothie purchases) but it does.

in a way, buying these shoes is a way of saving my money...lol. i find one of the best feelings you can have is knowing you've made a great purchase and now have something you can keep and love forever :)

excitement! anticipation!

i'm a little bit psyched about something.
our church youth group is having a talent show at a local theater place (they do a lot of local music and plays and summer programs) to raise money for trips and stuff, and i'm going to perform.
my mom was on opera singer and she went to college for singing, so music's kinda my bag. i've been singing from a really young age and i've gotten to a point where it's not really a huge deal to get up and sing for people- i get nervous, but i can harness the nervous energy and use it to focus.
so anyway i'm gonna use this performing opportunity as a chance to try and push myself and impress everybody :D

i'm gonna be singing somewhere only we know by keane, my all time favorite band. there are other songs by them i like better, but i'm comfortable with this (no practice really needed haha) and generally people have heard of it even if they don't know it by name.
also instead of our chior director accompanying me like i thought, one of my piano-playing friends took the sheet music home to work on it! i mean seriously the music's not that hard and he's really good at piano.....and i think he tried to learn it in the past so he'll have it down soon.

i'm so excited cause he gets really into piano playing and he likes this song too, so i think he'll be able to bring a lot of emotion to it and between the two of us its gonna be really intense.


.....but i have a chem test tomorrow D:
if only school could just exist when it was convenient.

:>

i got petunia to sync recently....i think it was yesterday......well who cares cause everything's working the way it should YAAAAAAAY

so i got my report card today.....eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh whatever. i'll do better this term (i always say that but i mean it this time!)

my dad says he'll get me rosetta stone for japanese if i get an a in chem and i was like VICTORYYYYYYYYYYYY until i realized it was $500....not like....$200 like i thought........so i'd feel crazy guilty making him buy me all 3 levels. maybe just level 2......adhfoishfsdfodshifff who cares

i just finished a history thesis in just under an hour :}

i'm in a pretty good mood right now.....mostly cause i'm listening to a "fever you can't sweat out" again.........i haven't heard it in like a year and i forgot how much i loved it :D THANK YOU ZUNE PASS

ugh i still have to do chem hw..........i fucking hate chem...........and i have algebra............well i'm sick but i can maintain this level of sorta healthy if i get to bed by 11

oh and i finally got a new calendar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!






i love you trenchmaker <33333

lol i'd forgotten why i was in such a good mood today....well good music and happy surprises in the mail will do that to you.
goodnight everybody!!!

chili cheese delicious, shaken babies

the past few days were awesome! thursday i went over to kevvie's (again lol) and once again, we watched sex and the city. it was fun as usual, but took an unexpected turn around dinner.
if you hold someone's shoulders and shake them while they sing the abcs-
it is HILARIOUS. SHAAAKEN BAAAABY!!!!!
i can't even explain how silly i sounded....it's an experience that needs to be had firsthand.

moving right along, i skipped off to choir practice only to realize my throat was extremely sore. all the excessive shaking and screaming might have had something to do with that. anyway after another terrible night's sleep (i'll elaborate in a minute), i woke up quite sick. as a result i stayed home and slept in until 1, missing beatboxers that came to school that day :(

well today i woke up and felt much better, so i went to hang out with a friend while he worked at the local ice rink. i had a chili cheese dog for the first time ever and it was AMAZIIING!!! i don't think my eating life will ever be the same.

in a little bit i'm gonna go off to see underworld with mo, but before that i wanted to share something irritating. the cause of my sleep deprivation is none other than my darling petunia!
that's right, my zune has been keeping me up. for some reason whenever i try to sync any music, the zune crashes. this started happening right after the software told me i had to re-format it (god knows why i had to do that). basically all the music will sync perfectly until it gets to the zune marketplace purchases, which is both ironic and very annoying.

well whatever. today's been pretty sweet so far, i'm not gonna let something like that ruin my good mood. off to read junjou romantica :3

smoothies, pelvises, assholes (in that order)

today was......interesting.
i've gotten back a few midterm grades- D in chem, C in latin and A- in english- so that was kind of a downer.
so to make up for it i headed over to see kevvy!!! (aka my portugese teddy bear)

we went over to a local ice cream place to get smoothies first, which was fun- especially since we almost knocked over a painting and a table and broke through a window while eating.
after that we skipped over to my modern class where i had the CRAZIEST ab cramps from the smoothies and laughing like a maniac at inside jokes...this was only aggravated by the 70 crunches we had to do D;
our teacher keeps talking about using our pelvises more and i think some of the advice is starting to manifest itself in my dancing, which is nice. i walked out to find kevin sprawled out hobo-like on the sofa out front of the changing rooms :D

so then we went over to babysit at my church...they needed people and i'd volunteered, so i figured why not bring a friend to help out.

except i guess i forgot about the fact that, in my church, everybody has a stick up their ass and putting your hand on somebody's shoulder means you wanna get in their pants.

i mean really....kevin (who is gay folks.....GAY....and it's kinda obvious after you talk to him...) pats me on the shoulder twice and the pastor's coming in to lecture us because he "knows we're a couple" (i quickly corrected him a little rudely) and doesn't want us to act "like a couple in front of the kids".
because even though i've known these people for ELEVEN FUCKING YEARS, they think i'm gonna be sitting on somebody's lap or letting them put their hands down my pants. in front of FIVE YEAR OLDS.

i don't know. if you wanna be an asshole and make rude, inconsiderate and downright insulting assumptions about somebody, go ahead and do it. maybe i'm overreacting, but i've given over 10 years of my life to this place and for them to think something like that about me....well i'm a little steamed to be honest.

i'm just looking forward to the day when i'm rich and successful and i can come back and shove it in the faces of everybody who's ever thought they were better than me. who's laughing now?


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also-
me and kevin as a couple = HIRARIOUS!

again and again

this was a good weekend. no hw = no stress :D
i think my midterms went ok...i could have prepared better, but whatever.

so i saw mall cop yesterday, which was quite funny. i knew it would be as soon as i saw happy madison productions on the screen, and thankfully i was not disappointed. all i'll say is there's a scene involving slow motion and a hockey stick that made for some excellent action.

i also got some new headphones and a fashion scarf :D now all i need is a new purse...

black burning heart

i just got a zune pass and i've never been happier. i'm simply gorging myself on music- unlimited downloads as long as i'm subscribed, and 10 permanent ones every month!
i've gotten so many music recommendations, it'll take forever to get through everything. i love my friends BD

currently i'm in love with keane's newest album and since nobody's home i'm singing it at the top of my lungs. chem studying can wait :)

how it ends

my neck hurts. other than that these past few days have been super uneventful...i finished fooli cooli, which was good as expected. i'm gonna have to go out and buy a new black lagoon box set soon (i lent it to a friend who scratched it and felt bad so he kept it and gave me cash to buy a new one :D) in addition to new headphones.
i don't know. this week's been dragging....i haven't studied at all for midterms and i only have monday left. oh school, how you burden me.

i hate slow, monotonous days- the snow outside's so pretty but for some reason it's unsettling. i feel like something's out of place but i can't tell what it is. maybe all my unresolved stress is manifesting itself in back pain, neck pain or worry, but that knowledge doesn't really help things.
it it a problem that as soon as i run out of things to do i get depressed? i feel like boredom shouldn't be so dangerous.
if only all of life's problems had an easy fix.

tacos, movies, etc etc

today was a good day!
i had a latin test which i think i did REALLY well on, and a chem quiz which i don't think i failed.
after school i headed over to a buddy's house where we watched all the sweet fight scenes in kill bill 2 (snake attack and crazy bitch with an eyepatch?? yes please!) all of charlie's angels (2 torpedo attacks in the last 5 minutes) and the sexy bits of charlie's angels full throttle. and we had tacos and coffee ice cream BD

surprisingly i'm not super stressed out about midterms. all of them have mostly multiple choice, and my math one's only 63 questions (and we get both sides of an index card as a cheat sheet!). it might be because i've been paying more attention in class (or maybe just cause today was super relaxing) but the material hasn't seemed so tough lately. now all that's left is to study my ass off this weekend.

oh and we watched sex and the city, as usual.
how was your day?

catsbridesallergies

so this weekend i had a sleepover at a friend's house, which was nice since we haven't seen each other in about 4 months. we saw bride wars, which was pretty funny- go see it if you like silly movies that make fun of silly women obsessed with silly weddings xD
we also sat around and, over 24 hours, rewatched all of gravitation save for the first episode (which was not so great). it was a pretty good time.

however.....
i might be allergic to cats D:

while watching tv her cat was curled up all cute on the sofa, a few inches away from my face. i was totally ok with this (seeing as i LOVE cats)....until my eyes started getting itchy and puffy. i thought maybe they were just dry, but even after rinsing out my contacts they were still burning- until the cat left.
we're gonna go get me tested soon...i reeeeeally hope it's just a passing thing.

eeeeeeeehhhhhhhhh..........

so school just started up again today. i'm not too pleased.
i have a surprise history test tomorrow, which is annoying...mostly cause history is SOOOOO lame i always forget to take notes....especially american history....god that shit's so boring! i mean don't get me wrong, some history's interesting....personally i wouldn't mind spending a year learning about, say, japanese feudal history...but american independence? noooo thanks lol
so basically i get to spend the whole day reading a history textbook since i didn't know about this before vacation.
which sucks cause all i really wanna do is watch BUBBLEGUM CRISIS!!!!

i saw the first ova a few days ago and it was so ridiculous i wanna watch the next one immediately xD between that and fist of the northstar i somehow doubt i'm gonna get a lot of schoolwork done anytime soon....which sucks cause midterms are coming up in a few weeks.

i have so much stuff to do and so little free time....from working on me & mo's comic to catching up with manga to just keeping up with school stuff.......i want another vacation!!

dark knight

soooo me & the family went to see some friends today, rewatched the dark knight. we saw it on a 70 inch tv in blu-ray with full surround sound lol. my dad's friend's such a geek xD

anyway i'd forgotten how sweet both the music and the script were. the music during that scene where gordon's pleading with dent was so intense....and the little kid crying just made it (lol)
while it was a little distracting to see it in such intense hd (what with all the imperfections in people's faces, etc) i think overall it was nice to see all the actors' expressions and all the special effects so up close. the giant 18-wheeler flip actually took me by surprise, i'd forgotten all about it lol.

(spoilers)
the ending seemed a little quick to me this time around. the first time i saw it was in a theater with friends and i didn't know how long it was gonna be- since its such a long movie i was kinda expecting it to wind down and end when it did. tonight i was sorta surprised by how quickly it ended after dent's death, i guess i was expecting a longer speech about how the batman is whatever gotham needs him to be, yadda yadda.

i think i'll have to watch it again to figure out why, but something about this movie bothered me a bit. it certainly wasn't the acting....
oh i remember. i still don't fully understand why rachel was moved and what that whole situation with her, dent and the police was about. i didn't get it the first time i saw the movie, but i thought maybe i just hadn't been paying attention and had missed something. i know this time i was definitely watching closely, but i still somehow managed to not understand what went down when dent and rachel were tied up and rigged to explode. it's probably something simple, but i don't understand why the police moved rachel, where they moved her....i'm usually the one who explains these kinds of things to people, so i'm frustrated that i still don't really understand what happened, even after seeing the film a second time.
oh well. i'll probably go read some plot summary or have somebody explain it to me. despite not getting that (which is really irritating and would usually spoil the whole movie), i still really liked it.

i'm just glad to know the it has rewatch value. so many films are great the first time around, but when you know the twists are coming and stuff it's less exciting and seems to drag. or maybe that's just me.
personally i think what makes a really good movie is if you're rewatching it and, even though you know what's coming, the way events are built up and the suspense created around them makes it possible to still get on the edge of your seat in anticipation for what's next.

while it's in no way my favorite movie of all time (like i could ever narrow it down) i'm glad i could enjoy the dark knight a second time around. i'll definitely be picking up both the soundtrack and the movie when i can.